Sooo~ my school holidays are coming to an end. Back to school on the 27th D:
B-but, I have two chemistry "revision lessons" coming up on Monday 12th and Wednesday 14th. I should be happy that I don't have one on Tuesday, considering it's going to be 41C (105.8F).

But, somehow, it doesn't cheer me up that much. Because... and here comes the overly long and boring rant, so feel free to skip.
At the end of school, back in good ole '08 (LOL), before exams, our chemistry class was given invitations to go to these revision lessons (mentioned above). I really wanted to go to them because, at that time I believed I had trouble with certain topics (metallic bonding, oh how I loath you). At a price of $30 per each 3 hour lesson I thought it would be alright. This is before I got the.. unbelievably, unexpected 88% on my exam (OTL;;). Although other "friends" I sit with in chem decided to go, they were all going as a group. I had thought to ask someone a bit closer to go with me.. e-especially since we had both struggled. So, we agreed to go to two lessons (one that I needed, one that she needed) and would send in the application after exams.
We forgot to send them in D:
I called up (baahhh, and that's a struggle in itself.. i get so frightened talking on the phone to strangers), at.. a terribly early time in the morning, to ask if it was still possible to send in the applications. So, the next day, I sent mine in.
Two weeks later, I ask my friend if everything went well with sending the money.
I know I should have expected this. She forgot again. She can be very lazy, and she wasn't that excited about going from the beginning. But.. she promised to go with me. And, I can understand, I should have reminded her more often. But.. what upset me was her reaction. She KNEW that I really wanted to go to these classes. I had, as they say, my heart set on it. I spent time convincing her to go with me, because I knew she would need them just as much as I would. When I finally asked her, a week before the lessons started, she just laughed awkwardly, shrugged and said no.
I got a bit upset, b-but simply tried to convince her to do it now, even if it's a little bit late she could still try. Of course, only now, she started to tell me a whole bucket of excuses. Some were plain stupid like wondering about food (I had told her that they provide FREE food during a break waaay back when we first got the invitation, there's a subway across the road, and enough vending machines to allow you to survive way into your 30s ). Some... I was willing to solve, such her transportation. I had even been able to rig it up so that we could catch the same bus, thus, solving her fear of going alone. But, she just simply suggested I get my money back. I dunno... I trusted her to send in her application, then she comes out with these really bad excuses. If she had problems with it, she could have talked to me earlier, then at least I wouldn't have wasted $60 and doomed 6 hours (+ transport) of my life.
This is probably something very petty to be upset about. But.. having a promise broken, hits a bit hard for me these days. And just her.. reaction. She really didn't care about how I felt about this, and what I'M meant to do now (selfish, I know). More over, this leaves me in a very awkward position. Those "friends" mentioned earlier... will be the only people I will know. Somehow, I just know that they'll do the same thing they always do, and I will be alone. It's good, I have to say, because I'll be able to concentrate. But.. somehow that feeling of being "left out"... nags at me still.

Bahhh~ I always feel so stupid writing these kinds of things up, it probably sounds so.. unimportant and trivial to anyone else.

Suck it up. Stop relying on other people. Don't care about anyone else and concentrate on your work.
I think.. that will be my motto for '09


In other..... er.. news. Franz Ferdinand's new video clip Ulysses has come a long way since their innocent schoolboy looks in Take Me Out... (or even their very first [as far as I know OTL, i'm bad with dates and all] Darts Of Pleasure. I got to say.. I love Darts Of Pleasure.)

I bought Moonraker by Ian Fleming. What is this sudden obsession with James Bond?! But I've been reading a lot more these days. P-probably because I lack access to a computer between the times of 17:30 and 23:30 on weekdays u___u I bought "Core Knowledge Physics" as well. I wanted to wait for the '09 edition, but that won't be out until February. I know I don't need it until much later in the year, but.. I don't know if I'll be able to get it later, and the teacher assured us that the '08 will be just as good. Aaaaannnddd I bought Fight Club by Chuck Palahniuk for my mother. I really liked it.
I also bought two new bags. I.. kinda like them. The only problem is that they're the type that go right under your armpit *shudders*. I can never wear them, because they slip off my shoulder within 12 steps. They're so uncomfortable.. how can everyone wear them?! I only bought them because I don't have any bags that fit A4 folders, other than my school bag with the school logo on it. Hopefully, I will find a good shoulder bag one day~
(I kinda want to take photos of the bags.. b-but maybe that's too vain for this entry?)
Spent too much on puricura photos again ;3; I think.. that's where a lot of my money goes whenever I go out with people.

Obviously.. It's getting late, and I'm babbling, thus the long, boring and pointless post. Please don't bother reading it all...

and on that note...
FAREWELL